Update!

Woo hoo update :D

So during the past 2 weeks of holidays ( School just started today... ) i've been busy with 2 main things.

1. TKD orientation camp!
2. Fund raising!

Man those 2 made my holidays fly so fast :(

Although i must say i had a few interesting nights in there that made it quite worthwhile :)

Anyway, exciting week coming up! Going to be sparring 3 times, with one time against Temasek Polytechnic! Im quite excited... although i hope i won't lose.

Well, going in for a learning experience i guess... HAHAHAAHA.

And i found this quote today on a friend's personal message on msn that cheered me up a little.

"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't give their all to love you."

Something so obvious that i missed, well, glad i found it!

That's all for now!

To Hell and back.

That's how far i'm going to go with everything important in my life from now on.

Nothing less.






But sometimes, i feel like i can't do anything at all...

And so i wait.

Like a train wreck in motion...

I'm really afraid of what comes after.



I really don't know what to feel now.
I guess i wished i never said anything in the first place.
Because it sucks when answers are never longer then one word.
I still don't understand much... sigh.



I just want to sleep. I don't want to think about it. Even though i know i will.

Im sitting here typing this hoping for a few things to happen... and a few things not to.

Something magical happened through the weekend and im really happy it did...
i don't know how to describe it, but, i can only say that im elated...

Because i can finally look up again :)

Today i did for my ippt...

50 sit ups
SBJ 220+
shuttle run 11.4 something(tripped. toe hurts like shit!)
4pull ups(lol)
sit and reach=not tested

SIGH, can be better i guess?

Smile.

Because it is the best way to hide.

Because it is the best way to lie.

So that people stop asking.

So that people think they know.

Even when you're on your last legs.

Even when it kills you inside.

Just pretend you are fine.

Just put on a smile...

Know that i am sorry.

And i know i am asking too much.

But if you would talk to me again.

Know that this face is true.

Decisions.

In life, there are these things called decisions to be made.

In fact, your life has been made up of the many decisions you have chosen for yourself.

Some decisions are made purely by your own choice. The easy ones. Such as...

"Should i eat this cake?... but i don't want to get fat.."
"Should i go for a run?... but im tired.."
"Should i study?...meh, lazy.."

These type of decisions, easily decidable in your own mind. Or if you have a little bit of trouble,your friends will easily give a little push to one decision and make it the winner.


But there are some decisions in life that you just can't just make on the spot.

Decisions where you feel conflicted about what to do.
That feeling of not wanting to give up just yet, in the hopes that your decision will lead to something better.
A risk taken so that you will be able to get what you really want.

Fear limits us, but fear is only fear if we let it be.